Nightmares really do come true...

A few weeks ago I had this dream. Typically, my nightmares consist of my doing or not doing something and it having dire consequences. Such was the case with this one. Part of my job entails pausing a machine, loading specimens, and resuming the machine. If this machine doesn’t got off when it is supposed to, it is as if someone threw a wrench in a bunch of gears: everything goes to hell in a handbasket. In this particular case, it would piss off a whole bunch of doctors and affect patient care.

Fast forward to today: I somehow forgot to hit the resume button.

Yeah, not good.

Everything is coming off late and it is all my fault.

I believe as the lab manager put it when the techs told him: “ Oh good, at least we have someone to blame.”

Yeah, thanks alot.

Then again, the tech told him we could blame one of the other techs as opposed to me, and the manager jokingly said: “Nah, I think we should stick with her (me), she can handle it, he would probably just cry.”

Well, at least he has my personality down, but it still doesn’t stop me from beating myself up about it. I feel terrible: I hate screwing up.

I’m trying to tell myself that the worst thing that could happen is a slap on the wrist, it is obviously an accident. I am just not looking forward to having to sit through it all. It just makes me feel worse.

The bright side? I won’t have to worry about making THIS mistake again.