Cleaning

Instead of doing work, I’ve been cleaning the flat. Seriously, it is amazing how good a clean flat makes me feel.

I must confess I’ve been living in a state of grey the past month or so. I believe it does have to do with the bullshit I put up with gran and my uncle. I won’t lie, the separation was painful, but necessary. The holidays just brought to light that I was no longer in communication with her. This also meant I had no energy to put into my studies so I let them slip on by. Thankfully I’ve gracious professors who allowed me extensions to finish up my work.

I also miss my father. My dad is the most down to earth parent of the two, and he and I have always clicked. I am happy that he is no longer under the same roof as I, but I do miss being able to chat over coffee or beers with him, or go see the latest action flick in the theaters. It was also his birthday this week. Nothing like seeing a commercial for an Elvis CD to solicit an “Oh, SHIT! I forgot to send Dad a card.” I guess it is beneficial that he and a famous celebrity have the same birthday, then I won’t forget it.

It was my mother’s husband’s birthday this week as well. My sisters were all gung-ho about that. I, not so much. I still don’t agree with them blowing off my Dad for the new man in my mother’s life. It will never sit well with me. I live with that and they have to live with that. Basically, I am my father’s only family now.

I have been sitting on a new domain for a year now. I was planning on moving to it, getting a new design up and whatnot, but you know how life gets in the way. However, part of me feels so attached to this domain name. Funny, but it is like an old confidant that has seen me through hell and back. I don’t know if I am ready to leave it, but I also don’t know if it is still “me”. Maybe I made it into myself, defined the term “HorseHell.” Who knows. I do know that I want to freshen things up a bit. Although I don’t show it “here” I have honed my design skills over the past couple years. I’m slowly starting to “clean” off the cobwebs of my old life and the things I enjoy to take them up again. Blogging, design, reading, music...loooots of music, baking, etc.

Of course, always in moderation.